PermaLink I am incredibly down on myself lately03/01/2006 08:45 PM

I was in a truly incredibly down mood on my way home last night.  I need something to happen to cheer me up.
This will be a short entry, because I am still in my office and need to get the hell out of here eventually.  The last couple of nights I've been quite depressed about nearly everything in my life -- my house is a mess, the cats are pains in the ass, I seem to be losing my money-management skills, work is maddening and sad, and I feel incredibly, totally alone.  I want something nice to happen just so I don't stick my head in the oven or something.

Don't worry, my oven is electric and it's been so long since I used it, I am not sure it works.

I want to meet the blonde, brown-eyed pianist and music professor from Manhattan.  I had dreams about her.

In totally other news, the new phone is really growing on me now that Skype works, I have streaming MP3s even when sitting in traffic, and its strengths come out.  One of its main strengths has been its ability to impress people.  For being small and streamlined, the thing amazes even fairly blase young tech fans.  Several have decided to get the thing instead of a Motorola RAZR.  I am certain Moto is amused by this, since I was one of those people, too.

In even otherer news, it actually scares me a little, how easy it is in America to borrow enormous amounts of money by typing some stuff on a website and talking on the phone for a few minutes.  I am putting together a home-equity loan so that I can clean up some bills, pay off my car and have some money for when I am fairly certain my septic system will explode in the spring.  Turtle instinct just tells me that'll be the next thing to go.  Shit.
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1. Turtle03/02/2006 04:17:28 PM

Call her? And say what?

"Hi, I don't mean to sound like I'm stalking you, but I Googled you and then looked up your number on Switchboard. I know you said you were dating some guy, but could we... hello? Hello?"

Don't get me wrong... I've thought about it.

2. Stephan H. Wissel03/02/2006 03:53:09 AM

Seems to be the time before spring... I have some downers too lately. Normally I console myself with "The night is coldest before dawn". And give the pianist a call.

3. Libby03/01/2006 11:07:29 PM

Not much that I can do to make something happen, but even a comment is a something: we're thinking of you and all that enthusiasm and togetherness is still there from LS -- just a little more virtual.
Hang in there,

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