PermaLink Possibly the worst week of my life, and it may have saved my life01/31/2012 01:14 AM
Horror can sometimes remind you of why you're here and what your real job is

If you've read the last few posts here, you realized that I left y'all hanging after Lotusphere.

Well, LS12 left me hanging, too.

Most of you know that I breed and show gigantic and majestic wabbits, some of whom have been featured in my shows at previous Lotuspheres. If you follow me on Twitter, and you should (@the_turtle), you also know that this past year has been one of triumph and hardship. I acquired four truly amazing Flemish Giants, I lost a gorgeous senior doe -- Elizabeth Regina, better known as Liz -- and two of my best older wabbits won damn near every show we went to last fall.

Well, those two came together and had a litter of kits who were born December 15, 2011. They were amazing.

This morning, I lost the last of those kits to illness. He was six and one half weeks old.

I did everything I could to save all of those kits. Everything I knew, and everything every great Flemish breeder I could draw on for advice, I did.

It wasn't enough.

I lost them all.

I am in deep depression right now, the likes of which I hope you will not know. I did my best, and my best was not good enough.

I will try again, because their parents are still good and honorable wabbits, and strong. I've learned.

It's a course of nature, but us humans take it personally. Worse, some humans who aren't involved directly project human failings upon this process. That can make it hurt worse, but won't stunt the process. Those of us who are in it for the long haul know the risks and try to mitigate them. When things go bad, we pay the price in tears and sleepless nights. I've known far too many of both lately.

So, if it seems like I haven't talked much technology here since getting back from Lotusphere, well, it's because I had those little moose-nosed kits to look after, and, well, that's my real job now.

And I've lost my real clients.

I has sad. Massive sad.

I'll be back.


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1. Bill02/03/2012 08:58:21 AM

If there is an afterlife, you will be blessed with the affection of every wabbit you've cared for because you've cared so much about them.

I hope to see my pets again in any potential here-after.

Some religions believe in an afterlife but pets aren't allowed in heaven. SCREW THEM! Every pet is more deserving than almost any human.

2. Keith Brooks01/31/2012 10:12:07 PM

Sorry been head down since the Sphere mostly. Very sorry to hear about them. You'll get them back, one by one and all will be good again. We all have peaks and valleys.

3. Dan Soares01/31/2012 08:39:27 PM

Sorry to hear about the loss of your kits. Stay strong!

4. Ray Bilyk01/31/2012 02:21:45 PM

My wife has been following you on Twitter (as she should), and she's taking your loss hard... We both want to send you our condolences. We are so sorry for your loss. Tomorrow will come, and breeding will occur again. You've been placing all of you in this event. You're drained. Make sure you take the time to recharge.

Brother, if you need anything, let us know... You know how to get a hold of me!

5. Karl-Henry martinsson01/31/2012 10:29:08 AM

I am sorry, I know how much you care for those wabbit. It is hard to lose an animal that you cared for... I had to put down two cats in the past, due to illness. It is not easy.

6. David Hablewitz01/31/2012 03:05:56 AM

The joy and sorrow of being a caring pet owner. My condolences.

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